Once again there's that tell-tale nip in the air and that certain feel about September. There was once for me a time when seasons just came and went. I accepted that spring followed winter, summer followed spring and autumn followed summer. The seasonal changes didn't bother me. Then one September many years ago my world fell apart and a period of great sadness followed. For many years afterwards I was acutely aware of the change that September brought and in September 1994 I penned these words:
September Sadness
Melancholy month when morning dew
Hangs like the tears I cried over you
Misty-eyed mornings stirring anew
Feelings thought hidden brought clearly to view.
Sad, sad September you’ve come round once again
The hurt is still hurting, the pain is still pain
Why does my heartache and heartbreak remain?
Will my life ever be complete once again?
Green leaves are turning, beginning to die
They will fall to the ground like the tears I now cry
There’s a chill in my heart even though I do try
To forget that sad year when we both said goodbye.
September release me, please let me be free
Of these feelings of sadness of things not to be
Let me bask in the sunshine, let me bathe in the sea
Give me a purpose, a reason, a new happier me.
Shed no tears for September, no more autumn rain
Shed no tears for the past for there’s nothing to gain.
©Marian Barker
2007-09-02 @ 16:39